Retrograde
An evil wizard has struck lighting bolts through the lives of many friends.
Just last night, a close friend of mine told me their roommates, who were previously close friends before a horrible incident, have found an apartment and are moving. No discussions, no explanation, no anything.
I think they have a reasonable right to be upset and angry about the whole situation. I can see myself in their situation. I sympathize immensely for them and would be feeling just as angry as they are. They are suddenly straddled with a housing insecurity I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
These former roommates of theirs said really nasty things and talked down to them in a disgusting way that I was frankly shocked to see coming form people who were originally friends. I have no doubt that these comments are racially motivated. It's not the first time my friend has been dismissed this way.
I feel so disgusted and betrayed on their behalf. It's beyond disappointing to see how people so close to you can change their tone for self-preservation.
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I went to a chart reading the other day with my girlfriend and heard the word retrograde a lot. I have a skepticism of astrological practices, but value the different perspective. "Retrograde" has sat in my mind since the meeting and it really does feel like the only adjective that can adequately describe the trends right now.
Progress made six months ago just seem to be peeling back slowly. Connections lost, disputes unresolved, fear, uncertainty and doubt. It feels difficult to be confident about choices when every week feels like a flashbang of new shocks.
I know there are still good things in life. I woke up today breathing, drank coffee and have a stable job. My health is good and I know I have people whom I can rely on. I don't fear for my safety daily. As long as I have these things I think I can keep going. But my heart bleeds when my people are hurt.
